castration. From "lop it off of me" pronounced quickly, mimicking the name of other medical procedures that involve tissue removal and end with "-omy" (such as "appendectomy".)
Definitions include: A strong urge to do something good though because one's addiction is strong, oneself has very little motivation to do that thing, especially followed by moments of desperation especially deep-seated though very mild desperation and also especially of including hopelessness which usually is especially statutory and surrounding-based, which usually and especially can also include feelings of isolation, light-headedness and willingness to do something usually having a strong difference between the amount of motivation in one's mind and one's body.